How does it feel to love someone so much that you barely see anyone else but them, for years .. living secured by their presence, love and care.. then they decide you can’t exist in their life anymore? And it’s not because of something you did or said .. it’s them who decided to carry on alone without any commitments, friends or love and be loved..
Is it disappointing?
To be standing still in this cruel world struggling, fighting and dreaming while knowing you are always backed.. and now you will have to face everything alone..
Is it scary?
To be loved, secured and protected somehow.. always having someone with you giving you faith and feelings of safe and secure without even saying a word.. and now you will try to hang on, do whatever it takes, fight over to reshape whatever can make you feel safe again ..
Is it hurtful?
To always give, appreciate and love them from head to toe, then now you will have to face being alone and broken..
Is it just loneliness?
That you always had someone special, who is always there, sharing everything in life with, dreaming together, sad and happy together, holding hands, giving strength and power hugs to each other when any of you is feeling down, laughing together at serious situations, pushing each other to be always better, backing decisions for each other and now you would be all alone.. no more memories to remember tomorrow…
Is this a nightmare?
Am i just too afraid of losing you? Or have i really got lost without you?
Is it fair? Or is it just unfair like other facts in our lives.. that we know well we can’t change, but hardly can we cope..
Is it a crime to fall in love truly with all you have ?!!